im looking for
attentionnot
another question
should you
stay or should you
go?
but if you dont have the
answerwhy you still
standing here?
hey
hey
hey
hey!
just
WALK AWAY~
im hooked onto that song lately
i guess its by what im feeling
the chorus seems to explain all.
literally . ive been plagued by fear of loneliness and have been so hopeful that it wont happen
but then again, nothing's fair in this world.
if everything can go youre way, you'll end up being a spoilt brat =)
mostly everything's going wrong
and i cant stand it anymore
to
YOU :
youre trying to act like my friend again
but youre still giving me some fucked up attitude
where's the sense in that?
everyone else can see that youre giving me attitude
yet i still buried whatever happened between us
and continued being youre friend
studies are going downwards
been studying so hard
yet not getting the results i want or aim for
im so tired of this.
life
ive been feeling so depressed
left out. Forsaken.
is my life really gonna be surviving on studying, computer, music and God?
Friends
what is a true friend?
ive been talking to daddy lately
he and asy has been quarrelling
about asy new stead
i askedd daddy a question that made me wonder too .
" are you willing to let him be with his stead and feel loved by a girl, even at the expense of youre friendship? "
here's a question posted out to all who are my FRIENDS and who love me as i am :
are all of you willing to sacrifice our friendship just to see me happy?
i know i am.
im willing to sacrifice anythign to see the people i love so much happy
but everytime i just wind up getting hurt each time i FINALLY trust someone
life is getting so harsh on me
everyone's finally happy.
and me?
hah.
when am i ever important
when am i even in the minds of anyone
im just some unknown/unnoticed person
AFFAIRS OF THE BROKEN HEART :
came home late from church last night
but saw my future-sis-in-law and kor so loving towards each other.
tinge of jealousy pushed across me .
i cant help but just think
when can i find a guy i really like
and have my parents agree with him as well ?
or even when will i get over my recent heartbreak?
i guess everything is just sucky for me
sighs.
to the people who say youre my friends :
i hope you guys are happy now
really. its not sarcasm or whatever
but what im feeling deep down
i hope you guys are happy
and i pray that i come across youre mind atleast once
even if for that split second.
because i know
im not worthy to be thought of
im not worthy to be anything in
ANY of youre eyes
im not worthy to be remembered.
~
do everything with your heart
even if you know that it'll hurt you
because by doing so
getting hurt the most,
is how you'll learn the most
could you look me in the eye, and tell me that youre happy now
i love YOU more and more each day ;
1:30 PM
