im pissed.
very pissed.
well. nowonder im any respect in school
WHY?
because im not getting any AT ALL at home.
NONE AT ALL
NOTED. im a spoilt brat
NOTED. im a bitch outta control
NOTED. im being called a slut by some of you in class
NOTED. im some fucked up bitch you guys hate to be friends with
NOTED. im a showoff for telling the truth. well. thats what the SOME of you say
NOTED. im someone you hate to be with.
NOTED. im sure you guys will be celebrating my death at my funeral. popping bottles of champaign and throwing huge parties.
NOTED. im someone the class hates
AND
NOTED. you guys will be celebrating the day i leave
NOTED NOTED NOTED
I NOTE THEM ALL DOWN
but hey somehow i still manage to find one stupid reason for being happy
SOMEHOW
but like what most people has quoted
one time of happiness = ten times of unhappiness
yeah. right.
and EVERYTHING , proper upbringing STARTS FROM HOME
well lets see.
why dont we start with one very sensitive topic that everyone craves but are unwilling to give unless they're given, shall we ?
R.E.S.P.E.C.T
NOTED. you guys hate me because i somehow dont treat any of you with respect
sarcasm has always been in me and what i will never understand, up till now, is that you guys seem to tolerate it for one freaking year and suddenly burst out after two months saying im going too over.
well FINE. i take it as an excuse to shut up and become ANTI SOCIAL.
POINT TAKEN. you guys afterthat dont think i exist after all this shit
POINT TAKEN. AND NOTED.
FINE. I ADMIT.
i dont give respect like i lend money out.
i dont give respect like a glass of water to a friend
i dont give respect like advice to a aquaintance.
i dont give respect like breathing air
and most of the time i expect people to respect me before i respect them
guess life doesnt work that way
well fine.
im okay with that because i still have friends outside that respect, care and love me for who i really am.
atleast i know a few.
for the cg.... well not to be paranoid or whatever
BUT.
i dont spend much time with them. reality strikes.
how well do i know them and how well do they know me?
im sure many of you are familiar with the song
PERFECT by simple plan
well yeah. i feel like that.
my dad?
piece of shit.
no.
not him.
i mean all the crap he's saying about
trying to understandare pieces of shit
all he does is scold me and my younger brother unfavourable words that i hate to hear
that isnt even encouraging
OKAY FINE. since when were reprimands favourable to the ears?
but hello?
being called names isnt a very nice thing to hear.
mum hears it but doesnt comment.
so i have a dad who insults like nobody's buisness and a mum that doesnt care.
lets see. what else?
an elder brother with a girl that i ACTUALLY RESPECTED
ATFIRSTfor one she had half my respect when i heard her views on certain stuff and bonus points for her being an anglican.
but so what if she's a christian for who-knows-and-i-dont-care-how-many-years
if she doesnt respect herself
and dont respect the other people living in the house
i mean come on
if you wanna sleep
and do godknowswhatelse in my room
DO IT SMART
dont leave my whole bedroom in a mess when i took the trouble to clean it by waking up at seven on a SATURDAY MORNING CAN
a younger brother who cries alot and a younger sister who's a lynette low in the making
gee. can my life get any BETTER?
a second elder brother who's as blur as anything.
YAY me.
so lets see what i've got sofar
a mum who dont really care
a dad who insults
and a eldest brother who doesnt respect me, my room, and my privacy
did i mention my
cupboard was open when i
came homewhen i vividly
remember i
closed it this morning ?
what else ?
OHYES
ive been worried sick lately
somehow, this week has been a week of gangsters and taijis for my friends and me.
mine? aiyah. same old lorh.
who else can it be caused by ?
im sure you sunshines know about it .
so im not gonna blog it out
i had atleast
five friends who told me about them getting into taijis.
one even thought i got chup and asked me if i could help -.-
letme make this clear first. i do
NOT have a
chup . or baju. or clothe. or
whatever it is you guys call it. so
NO. i can
NOT help .
oh and you know what?
i think im backsliding.
i love YOU more and more each day ;
5:54 PM
