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Thursday, December 28, 2006

i need a break from life.

Lord, im shattered.
i cant feel anything. i cant have any emotion.
the saddest part is, nobody knows.
even the person whom i thought understands me the best
cant even tell when im sad anymore

God. i feel disappointed.
very disappinted.

everything's fading away.
and all i can feel is .....
nothing.

not even hurt. not even anger.
not even anguish

fuck. what is happening to me ?

nobody gives a fuck about me anymore.
and all i feel is........

heartless. emotionless.

Father. i dont wanna feel this way.
help me. i lift up my hurts and shatteredness to you .
i want to take refuge under your wings.
Lord. grant me the healing. grace me with youre power.

because all i feel now is the tears in my heart.
and all i can show is a big wide smile.
that nobody can tell what is behind it .


i love YOU more and more each day ;
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