probably. possibly. maybe. could be. shouldbe . this is probably just
one of those days... where i feel emotionally overwhelmed. then again, how can a girl NOT be emotionally overwhelmed when she's in the stage of puberty and undergoing so much hormonal changes?
chatted with mrneo today when i saw him at the office when i was going to take my IC.
he was worried about me , but i told him i found the whole thing hilarious and i wasnt that upset about the insults.
i found myself going back time and again to the past memories. and i realize im not the only one doing that. i wonder why do i keep going back into the past, missing and reminiscing it more , than i think about the present and cherish whatever i have now.
i know. i should cherish the people around me. maybe i went too far by telling mrneo i've got no friends in school. because obviously i still have jaslyn and joelle, shujie, and enci, armeeza and ofcourse mrneo in school with me.
and i know i got people outside school aswell . but i cant avoid the fact that the only real friends are those withstanding the test of ten years atleast.
i think the longest standing friends are melissa and samantha.
more to come! but definitely. these two are people i wont ever wanna lose nomatter what.
walked all the way home today. i realize nowadays its so easy to feel sad but so hard to cry. its like the tears are at the edge of your eyes and you cant cry.
well okay. iim not feeling sad. im just feeling moodless. just when will you start paying attention to me? i'll never know. perhaps you do . perhaps you usedto . perhaps now you dont. perhaps now im selfish and greedy. perhaps . perhaps . perhaps
im preetty blessed from what i know of myself. but try convincing your oh-so-jealous heart that you really are blessed and contented. yea, as much as the right thing is to always follow your heart, it has its minus points too .
i guess. its time for a short nap before i do any homework tonight. i feel really exhausted
goodnight people
i love YOU more and more each day ;
6:25 PM
